Tomorrow it will be one month since billy died. i am not sure why, but i really was doing better then in the last few days i have started slipping in to deep sadness. i just miss him so much.

i feel like there is a giant hole in my heart and i really can’t see anything healing it.

i used to have a network set up that helped me deal with things. but you get older, you make mistakes and you do things you regret.

Did i do something bad. I just don’t understand why he had to die. What did I do to the world to have this happen. I feel so guilty. Pooor billy. he was so wonderful.

i miss you billy. i love you billy

my heart hurts still…

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Hi there everyone,
I haven’t been keeping up to date with my blog. I have had a really hard time of late. My beautiful cat, Billy Corgan, died and I have had a real time getting over it. It’s just been really emotionally draining, and I feel like i have lost my best friend. I still really miss billy, but I am starting to get up and go about my life again… but even as i write this i am starting to get teary.

Anyway… my lap band has proved to be quite useful for stress and tears.. I used to overeat when I was sad. I would hole myself up with food.. food made me feel better. but instead of that.. this time I went off my food. I still ate enough to survive and all that, but there was no snacking. there was no late night coke cans… all good.

So two days after billy died, i went to the doctors and I had lost 4.5 kgs that month. Some of if would have been lost before billy died but overall it was a great docs visit.

So I am going well. I do however need to get back into exercise so I am off now to make an exercise plan.. has anyone got any tips?

Before I go I have noticed that some people have been getting to my website by searching things like “meal plan for lap bands”. Just a quick note on that.

1. Once you are done with the mushie stage and all of that, you should eat wholesome food that makes you feel good. Basically you can eat fatty/sugary foods. but you can’t eat enough of them to sustain your body. So you will feel much better eating some vegies or fruit.

2. Never eat foods that make you get a “productive burp” (burp that brings your food back). It will just upset you. You will need to find foods that do this because it’s different for everyone. For me it’s only really bread (more than a slice), rice and some stir frys. But for you it might be beans… who knows…

3. NEVER NEVER NEVER drink with food. It washes food through the food and you won’t loose weight.

4. I have found that a great breakfast is yogurt, frozen fruit and musli - just a little of each. A great lunch, two Ryvita’s with ham cheese or tomato (although the more you put on the ryvita the more chance you will have of only eating one of them). For dinner I just have what everyone else is having but a small ammount of.

Does anyone have any questions about lap bands?

c ya