Hi there everybody.

For the past three weeks I have been absolutely convinced that I am dying. This is probably because my cat died and I guess I sort of wanted to be with him… not like suicidal thoughts… just thoughts.

Then for the past week I have been convinced that I am dying of skin cancer. For the first few days I thought it was skin cancer as I had some moles that started looking funny. Then a few days later it was stomach cancer. Mainly because when you have a lap band you are aware of stomach. So in my insane state I concentrated on it.

So i booked a doctors appointment for this morning.

However I went to bed and woke up and things became very clear… all of my concerns were realised when i woke up with symptematic realisations… it isn’t cancer…..not heart disease… not a stroke…

IT WAS A COLD!

Anyway so i went to the doctor and the moles are fine… just a broken heart i guess and the sniffles.

Weigh in is not for two weeks - I am really hoping to have lost 3 kgs.

So since the doctors I have gone about convincing myself that my band is slipping. It’s realy not. I mostly know that… because i test the theory and it’s not like I can eat more…

I guess my brain really wants to believe that billy wasn’t the only one who was sick…

One Response to “I am going a little bit insane”

1. Ginger Says:
   September 4th, 2007 at 3:39 pm

   Take care of yourself and if you have not already think about taking up a hobby, it will help to take your mind off negative thoughts. You will always miss your cat however think of all the good times you had with it.

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