Hi Everyone,

I am so sorry that haven’t been updating my blog very often.

I would love to tell you that I have been really busy. Which if I did, it would be mostly true. I have been planning my next New York trip, i went to Perth, I have been doing heaps of freelance work and i have been working basically full time.

But business aside I would still have 5 minutes to update my blog.

And I haven’t! So why.

Well I guess I have been ashamed of myself. And while I am finding this hard to type, I have now decided that that I need to stop being ashamed of myself.

Why am I ashamed?
- It has been a year and a half since I got my band and I have not completely reached my goal weight.
- I want to exercise more than I do and I want to more routein with my exercise.
- I still eat some food that I shouldn’t, more regularly than I should.

Reasons why I should not be ashamed?
- I have lost the major bulk of my weight and I should be proud of myself, well I am proud.
- I exercise much much much much more than I used to.
- I don’t eat ‘bad’ food nearly as much as I used to and I don’t eat huge portions, because I can’t.
- The fact that I am ashamed is keeping me from achieiveing the last part of my weight loss.

Alright so what do I need to do..
- Like most people I need to watch what I eat and eat food that power my body, so that I can exercise. I need to restrict myself to one day a week that I can have bad food.
- i need to celebrate my exercise. Be excited about obtaining regularity with exercise.

So there you have it.

So I got my band mid dec 2006. So my deadline is Dec 15th 2008, barring any excess skin that needs to be removed, which i could have done now, but i want to make sure i have lost all the weight i can, so that the skin doesn’t need to be removed again and again.

So my mantra is now… I am so proud of myself (and my lap band) and I can’t wait to see what what we can do together now!