Hi Everyone,

I am so sorry that haven’t been updating my blog very often.

I would love to tell you that I have been really busy. Which if I did, it would be mostly true. I have been planning my next New York trip, i went to Perth, I have been doing heaps of freelance work and i have been working basically full time.

But business aside I would still have 5 minutes to update my blog.

And I haven’t! So why.

Well I guess I have been ashamed of myself. And while I am finding this hard to type, I have now decided that that I need to stop being ashamed of myself.

Why am I ashamed?
- It has been a year and a half since I got my band and I have not completely reached my goal weight.
- I want to exercise more than I do and I want to more routein with my exercise.
- I still eat some food that I shouldn’t, more regularly than I should.

Reasons why I should not be ashamed?
- I have lost the major bulk of my weight and I should be proud of myself, well I am proud.
- I exercise much much much much more than I used to.
- I don’t eat ‘bad’ food nearly as much as I used to and I don’t eat huge portions, because I can’t.
- The fact that I am ashamed is keeping me from achieiveing the last part of my weight loss.

Alright so what do I need to do..
- Like most people I need to watch what I eat and eat food that power my body, so that I can exercise. I need to restrict myself to one day a week that I can have bad food.
- i need to celebrate my exercise. Be excited about obtaining regularity with exercise.

So there you have it.

So I got my band mid dec 2006. So my deadline is Dec 15th 2008, barring any excess skin that needs to be removed, which i could have done now, but i want to make sure i have lost all the weight i can, so that the skin doesn’t need to be removed again and again.

So my mantra is now… I am so proud of myself (and my lap band) and I can’t wait to see what what we can do together now!

2 Responses to “I am sorry if I have let you all down”

1. Ginger Says:
   July 14th, 2008 at 5:12 pm

   Well done, you are making positive decisions so don’t be so hard on yourself, you will get to to your desired weight maybe a little later then planned so what, smile and relax and maybe that will make it easier for you and keep up positive thinking.

   Good luck, keep us informed we are on your side.

2. g-na Says:
   August 23rd, 2008 at 3:40 am

   3.

   I’ve had my lap-band for about 2 years now and I have to say, i’m not sure what it’s supposed to do.
   i’ve had 3 or 4 fills, the last time I went for a fill i was told that i didn’t need it. But honestly, I’m not sure why I don’t really lose weight. I exercise and I eat very well, but, I can pretty much eat as much as I want to without pain or feeling uncomfortably full. On occasion, i’ll have a few meals that will fill me up right away and it will take much longer to get thru the meal, but most of the time….. i’m very frustrated when I hear of people losing massive amounts of weight in a year. For me, i’ve lost about 40 pounds in 2 years. I am now at the weight that I have been at most of my adult, overweight life. I feel as though my friends and family were expecting a dramatic change, as I was, now we are all wondering what I spent all that money for!

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