Hi there everybody.

For the past three weeks I have been absolutely convinced that I am dying. This is probably because my cat died and I guess I sort of wanted to be with him… not like suicidal thoughts… just thoughts.

Then for the past week I have been convinced that I am dying of skin cancer. For the first few days I thought it was skin cancer as I had some moles that started looking funny. Then a few days later it was stomach cancer. Mainly because when you have a lap band you are aware of stomach. So in my insane state I concentrated on it.

So i booked a doctors appointment for this morning.

However I went to bed and woke up and things became very clear… all of my concerns were realised when i woke up with symptematic realisations… it isn’t cancer…..not heart disease… not a stroke…

IT WAS A COLD!

Anyway so i went to the doctor and the moles are fine… just a broken heart i guess and the sniffles.

Weigh in is not for two weeks - I am really hoping to have lost 3 kgs.

So since the doctors I have gone about convincing myself that my band is slipping. It’s realy not. I mostly know that… because i test the theory and it’s not like I can eat more…

I guess my brain really wants to believe that billy wasn’t the only one who was sick…

Hi there everyone,
I haven’t been keeping up to date with my blog. I have had a really hard time of late. My beautiful cat, Billy Corgan, died and I have had a real time getting over it. It’s just been really emotionally draining, and I feel like i have lost my best friend. I still really miss billy, but I am starting to get up and go about my life again… but even as i write this i am starting to get teary.

Anyway… my lap band has proved to be quite useful for stress and tears.. I used to overeat when I was sad. I would hole myself up with food.. food made me feel better. but instead of that.. this time I went off my food. I still ate enough to survive and all that, but there was no snacking. there was no late night coke cans… all good.

So two days after billy died, i went to the doctors and I had lost 4.5 kgs that month. Some of if would have been lost before billy died but overall it was a great docs visit.

So I am going well. I do however need to get back into exercise so I am off now to make an exercise plan.. has anyone got any tips?

Before I go I have noticed that some people have been getting to my website by searching things like “meal plan for lap bands”. Just a quick note on that.

1. Once you are done with the mushie stage and all of that, you should eat wholesome food that makes you feel good. Basically you can eat fatty/sugary foods. but you can’t eat enough of them to sustain your body. So you will feel much better eating some vegies or fruit.

2. Never eat foods that make you get a “productive burp” (burp that brings your food back). It will just upset you. You will need to find foods that do this because it’s different for everyone. For me it’s only really bread (more than a slice), rice and some stir frys. But for you it might be beans… who knows…

3. NEVER NEVER NEVER drink with food. It washes food through the food and you won’t loose weight.

4. I have found that a great breakfast is yogurt, frozen fruit and musli - just a little of each. A great lunch, two Ryvita’s with ham cheese or tomato (although the more you put on the ryvita the more chance you will have of only eating one of them). For dinner I just have what everyone else is having but a small ammount of.

Does anyone have any questions about lap bands?

c ya

LIQUIDS SUCK

But some good news

Current Weight: 123 kgs
Goal Weight: 72 kgs
Only 51 kgs to go…

So i went to the doctors again… I have still lost a little, but not enough…

So in the 1.5 hour to see the doctor, I figured it out. It’s the drinks. I shouldn’t drink anything that i do drink at the moment. My favorite drink, which is a low fat and low sugar iced coffee, is 400 calories… WTF! Once i realised this, I have realised where my weight is now coming from. It used to come from food and drinks. now however it is still coming from the drinks.

So that’s i am now a recovering coke(a-cola), iced coffee and juice addict. So I think I have it all figured it out.

On the good side, I went to the park today for a run! This is insane I don’t think I have ever run for exercise. I think the last time i ran to get somewhere fast was four or five years ago, and even then it killed me. I feel like a normal person. insane.

Hi there everyone,

Ok i haven’t been blogging and it’s not because i have a good reason either.

i haven’t been blogging because i haven’t been feelling like a good enough role model.

BUT now i have come to the conclusion that i need to say this, like alcoholics anoyomous, to make progress.

I have been snacking! ice cream and coke are the main offenders.

So there it is.

I haven’t weighed myself in a month or so, because i haven’t looking forward to the results.

i do feel a little smaller, but i don’t think i have lost much recently.

I am going to the doctors tomorrow to get a fill, so i will weigh myself then. I will let you know tomorrow if I am right.

Anyway… So this week i went to the gym, not once but twice… Which is good.

And now that I have been thinking about i think that the fact that i am so down on myself for snacking is actually a good thing.

I mean a year ago i used to snack without a thought. Now at least i know right from wrong..

So to resolve the snacking issue and the untoned body issue I am going to get into the gym. I am aiming to three times next week, four times the week after and my final goal is five times a week (three weeks in). I sorted out a new gym circut thing. Which for the first time in my life doesn’t have an hour of cardio.

The gym guy said that because i have lost a lot of weight (which despite my recent crash i know is very true) I don’t have to do as much sweat and tears stuff anymore. I just have to do enough to keep my healthy and continue losing weight a bit.

This makes me very happy.

O I feel good that i got that off my chest…

CHOLE… I am going to email you tonight so watch your inbox..,

OK so liquid diet is starting to get to me a little. But luckily enough I am still quiet tired and every time I get hungry I find it easy to go to sleep.

I am going to see the dietitan for the first time tomorrow. She will tell me about what I get to eat when I move to mushy food on day fourteen. I am so excited for day fourteen.
I am so excited about mushy food. I just miss hot food. I tried to have some soup, but for some reason I started to think it looked like vomit and I couldn’t even look at it.

So it’s back to ice creams and water.

It’s amazing how hard it is to eat a whole ice cream. I am beginning to wonder how I will ever get a whole entrée down.

Current Weight: 129 kgs
Goal Weight: 72 kgs
Only 57 kgs to go…

Well I am getting my hair cut tomorrow. I haven’t seen my hairdresser in three months. So lets see how he reacts.

BIGGER NEWS: I went to Kmart yesterday to buy some pants (yes all of mine fall down) and I went to the NORMAL GILRS department… AND I Purchased a pair of size 16 JEANS… as mentioned before, jeans are a true test!

AND I went to the doctors and weighed myself.

FREAKIN’ A!

Current Weight: 111 kgs
Goal Weight: 72 kgs
Only 39 kgs to go…

I know it’s has been two weeks since I have posted and I promise that after the next week you will be seeing updates everyday.

But I have spent the last two weeks, eating the right foods… OK OK OK I have had some fun size packets of chips. And some chocolate. But moderation is the key.

I mean the thing I am starting to realise that the LapBand™ has helped me lose weight and will continue helping me lose weight. But if I don’t eat the right foods and exercise I will just be thinner and unhealthy. The boast you feel from 3 vegetables is more than an energy drink. It lasts longer. And it does good.

I am really into roast beef at the moment. It’s tender enough for me to get down. The accompanying gravy wasn’t great for me but a treat isn’t the end of the world…right?

I have been taking dog on a walk almost everyday. Which has been great. He has been ultra happy and I have realised that if I take the pressure off exercising it’s really quite fun.

Ok so I have a deadline for my thesis (oh yes I am doing my Masters) this week so I need to work on that for a bit.

WEIGHT UPDATE NEXT WEEK!!! Lets see how far healthy eating and exercise gets me?

So I went to doctors today.

How on earth does one casually mention that they have constipation? My body is also retaining liquid.

So while I have lost a couple of inches around my tummy the scales told a different story.

I haven’t budged a bit.

It’s time to eat some fibre! Things that come from a can are not a diet. Fruit, vegies, protein and NO CHOCOLATE are a diet! Well a way of living.

On the brighter side… I went to DFO today and went and brought a pair of size 18 jeans. So it’s official (and everybody knows jeans are the test – not much give there) I am down from a SIZE 22-24 to an 18!!!!!

Current Weight: 114 kgs
Goal Weight: 72 kgs
Only 42 kgs to go…

Well the beach was fun!

I progressed through the mushie stages without a problem.

I got caught in a rip while swimming. Which was scarey, but my boyfriend and I made it out. He said I was overreacting but it was terrible. But at least I am a little leaner. Which I am sure made it easier.

Eating out was easy; on the last night I had a very tender steak, well half of it. AND IT WAS AMAZING.

Every now and then I eat a food that my LapBand™ doesn’t think I should but I have a slip of coca-a-cola and everything is good again. Who would have thought that Coke™ is my wonder drug? But it is. If something is too hard for the band Coke™ just washes it away.

There weren’t any scales in the hotel room, so I haven’t been able to weigh myself for a month, which is a good thing! The next time I get on the scales will be when I get my band filled tomorrow.

I am seeing the surgeon will be putting the liquid put into my band. As much as I never thought I would be able to say this again, I am getting hungry. When I first got the surgery it was so hard to drink a glass of water.

And even know I knew that it would get easier and that one day I could eat a whole entrée serve. I just couldn’t imagine it happening. The doctors told me that by the time I got the liquid put into the band I would need it. But it was just hard to believe.

Once I get the liquid put in, the band will start working effectively. But by the way I feel and look, it already is!

I went shopping while I was on holiday and I was actually able to buy things. Normally shopping at the beach would be painful. Because there are no larger sizes stores, but this time I was actually able to find some XL’s in the normal stores that fitted me.

I am actually now a XL in the normal work instead of a XXL in the fat world… it’s fanflippingtastic!