Hi Everyone,

I am so sorry that haven’t been updating my blog very often.

I would love to tell you that I have been really busy. Which if I did, it would be mostly true. I have been planning my next New York trip, i went to Perth, I have been doing heaps of freelance work and i have been working basically full time.

But business aside I would still have 5 minutes to update my blog.

And I haven’t! So why.

Well I guess I have been ashamed of myself. And while I am finding this hard to type, I have now decided that that I need to stop being ashamed of myself.

Why am I ashamed?
- It has been a year and a half since I got my band and I have not completely reached my goal weight.
- I want to exercise more than I do and I want to more routein with my exercise.
- I still eat some food that I shouldn’t, more regularly than I should.

Reasons why I should not be ashamed?
- I have lost the major bulk of my weight and I should be proud of myself, well I am proud.
- I exercise much much much much more than I used to.
- I don’t eat ‘bad’ food nearly as much as I used to and I don’t eat huge portions, because I can’t.
- The fact that I am ashamed is keeping me from achieiveing the last part of my weight loss.

Alright so what do I need to do..
- Like most people I need to watch what I eat and eat food that power my body, so that I can exercise. I need to restrict myself to one day a week that I can have bad food.
- i need to celebrate my exercise. Be excited about obtaining regularity with exercise.

So there you have it.

So I got my band mid dec 2006. So my deadline is Dec 15th 2008, barring any excess skin that needs to be removed, which i could have done now, but i want to make sure i have lost all the weight i can, so that the skin doesn’t need to be removed again and again.

So my mantra is now… I am so proud of myself (and my lap band) and I can’t wait to see what what we can do together now!

Howdy,

My scales are on the blink so I can’t tell you about my fitness process. but I am going to buy a new set and a good tape measure for my measurements. So I will try and update you tomorrow.

Anyway i just wanted to shout out to Tara. I have been in your situation, and it really freaked me out. I went and got a barium swallow and everything was fine. I know it’s yuck and costs money, but as far as i know, it’s the only way.

Stressing out that the band has moved will just get to you… go ahead and do it.

Also, so Ginger perhaps you should do a fun walk in the name of your brother? It could be a nice way to celebrate his life?

Hi everyone,

I am sorry that it has been so long. I was working on my thesis and then celebrating doing so.

I am doing well. I went to the doctors and I had lost 2 kgs in a month. Which is slightly below what I would like, but I have been working out, which means i probably gained some muscles. Anyway, then I pulled a tummy muscle and got worried it was band related. I went straight on to liquids and ended up losing another two kgs… so four down.

Anyway i should answer a question - someone asked how much the out of pocket cost was. I have the highest level of health insur, with medibank private, so aside from that the surgery fee was $4,500.

yes i would recommend it. It doesn’t happen as quickley as Gastric By Pass, but I think it’s better for you. So far I have lost 32 kgs (it has been a year since the surgery) some people do better than that and some do worse. And that’s fine. your body will take it’s own time… but it’s really about learning the right way to live. the way to live that is good for you.

#1 reason why the Lap Band has changed my life… I am going to the USA next week. I will be flying for 27 hours without any concern for DVT, I will fit comfortably in the seat and when i arrive in NYC i will walk up and down that damn island… just cos i can.

then i will buy a million pieces of clothing, again just because i can…

i am off to hung out the washing on the line - yes that’s easier too.

speak to you in three weeks. .

I am just about to hand in my thesis.

will be back to the blog in 2 weeks.

sorry about the delay.

Hi there everybody.

For the past three weeks I have been absolutely convinced that I am dying. This is probably because my cat died and I guess I sort of wanted to be with him… not like suicidal thoughts… just thoughts.

Then for the past week I have been convinced that I am dying of skin cancer. For the first few days I thought it was skin cancer as I had some moles that started looking funny. Then a few days later it was stomach cancer. Mainly because when you have a lap band you are aware of stomach. So in my insane state I concentrated on it.

So i booked a doctors appointment for this morning.

However I went to bed and woke up and things became very clear… all of my concerns were realised when i woke up with symptematic realisations… it isn’t cancer…..not heart disease… not a stroke…

IT WAS A COLD!

Anyway so i went to the doctor and the moles are fine… just a broken heart i guess and the sniffles.

Weigh in is not for two weeks - I am really hoping to have lost 3 kgs.

So since the doctors I have gone about convincing myself that my band is slipping. It’s realy not. I mostly know that… because i test the theory and it’s not like I can eat more…

I guess my brain really wants to believe that billy wasn’t the only one who was sick…

Tomorrow it will be one month since billy died. i am not sure why, but i really was doing better then in the last few days i have started slipping in to deep sadness. i just miss him so much.

i feel like there is a giant hole in my heart and i really can’t see anything healing it.

i used to have a network set up that helped me deal with things. but you get older, you make mistakes and you do things you regret.

Did i do something bad. I just don’t understand why he had to die. What did I do to the world to have this happen. I feel so guilty. Pooor billy. he was so wonderful.

i miss you billy. i love you billy

my heart hurts still…

www.ilovedmypet.com/billybooboo

LIQUIDS SUCK

But some good news

Current Weight: 123 kgs
Goal Weight: 72 kgs
Only 51 kgs to go…

Hi there everyone…

I went to the doctors yesterday and i weighed myself.

And as it turned out, I was right.

I had still lost weight, but not as much as I used to.

The doctor and I have narrowed down to lunch. For some reason i tend to skip lunch. Which means that at ten at night I snack… And i don’t know anyone who makes good decisions at 10pm…

So I have sorted out a little bit of a new meal plan….

I gotta get rid of those other 25 kgs!

XOX